There are MANY things in my life that are very POSITIVE. I am trying hard to focus on those things. Yet, it's hard through the tears that seem to constantly be falling. I try real hard when I am around anyone. I absolutely HATE people to feel sorry for me. I am quite capable of doing that all by myself. I want to be around others, so that I can forget life for awhile and focus on other things. I am very blessed. I have four healthy adult children who have homes and jobs and are, for the most part, happy and well adjusted, adding "wonderfulness" to the world type of people. I love them with all of my heart. They have brought more joy to my life than anything else. They are my life. I would love to insert one of my favorite pictures of them, but alas, it is only available in my brain. When they smile, it fills my heart with such joy. When they tell each other, "I love you," it is, at times, more than a mother can wish. I need them far more than they need me anymore. That is one of the reasons I moved back to Las Vegas. I missed them so much. I missed being a part of their lives.
I know that all of this negative stuff that is going on right now will pass. It always does. It is kind of like things that bring pleasure. Lasts for a moment, but is fleeting. It is making me stronger, and in a way, I know that it's good. But, I feel so weak, before I feel the strength.
I am a survivor though. I will survive. Past experiences have taught me that. I have been through a lot, and this is just a little more to add to that. The scriptures have taught me that; "this too shall pass..." and "it came to pass." Great words to remember.
Anyway, I'm off to take care of a negative thing in my life. Why do they always cost so much? Well, I guess if I was spending this money on something I really wanted, and could afford, I would really like it.
Keep smiling...I think there is a song like that. Dionne Warwick sang it in the '60's. I'll have to look up the words...researcher that I am, here they are. Hope you know the tune. The title is: That's What Friends are For
And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember ...
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember ...
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
There is another one too...my daughter likes it also...
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
So...I'm off...smiling...knowing things will ALL work out. They always do.
There is a God and He sees to that. I'm thankful to know this.
